The tiredness, the overwhelming sense of tiredness. Now this is something I was warned about after my treatment but my god I was not ready for how severe it was and still is. Only last week I had a little breakdown to Jonny again over this. I had been feeling […]
The Guilt and The Anger…..
These emotions were something that I was only able to express to my counsellor to being with. I felt like a horrible human for thinking the way I was. But I was overcome by thoughts of them both. Guilt for getting sick. Guilt for getting better! I was feeling guilty […]
Its good to talk…..
So I had made the decision – I needed to go and speak to someone. Someone who was familiar with my situation and could help me navigate my way through the fog of thoughts I was having and the crippling feeling of failure. I felt like I was failing at […]
Getting back to normal – Or so I thought……
Like I had previously said I thought that once treatment was over that I would be back – normality would resume! But it did not! Not by a long shot! I had spent a week away with Jonny, courtesy of my amazing friends!! But what I found when I came […]
A little background……
So I had been writing down a lot of things since I was diagnosed with Non Hodgkins Lymphoma back on 27th April 2017. Bits and pieces here and there and so after a little suggestion I decided I was going to put it all down online and if someone can […]